Unfortunately this second round at Hansa has not produced the results that I saw the first time. I do believe that has a lot to do with how toxic I may have let myself get. I think because I was feeling so much better than I had in at least a year I was overdoing it and not taking care of my self the way that I should be. I know I have mentioned it in early posts but one of the things that is so frustrating about this disease is never knowing for sure why you feeling like you do. Is it a herx, is it a flare, is it just part of the disease? Even with tracking symptoms sometimes you still can not tell. Over the past couple of weeks I have had an increase in my brain issues. I am having a harder time concentrating and am more forgetful. I also feel more easily overwhelmed. Some of my heart and breathing issues have also increased a little. The biggest thing is some of my pain is back. After two months of being almost 100% pain free my joint and bone pain is back. It is fairly wide spread and random as was normal. My hips and knees get really sore when I am sitting or laying. My arms and legs are falling asleep really quickly and I have burning nerve pain. What the heck? This is obviously where my frustration comes in. I guess I had kind of convinced myself I could only go up. So this is my reminder that I guess I can go back down too.
My girls are still doing okay and I feel like Brooke (5) has had some improvements in mood and attitude. My family is plugging along with are better eating habits. I am beginning to believe we can do largely organic without breaking the pocket book. It comes down to my planning a little better but we will get there. I just have to remind myself to take this one day at a time and when we slip, we just need to get back up and move forward. There is no sense beating ourselves up over our mistakes. The girls are getting better at taking their remedies everyday. In about a week or so they will be all done. I'm hoping we continue to see some improvements with them both.
Our next issue is how we continue with my treatment. I wish I could be done but it is obvious I am not ready to stop everything. Hansa really wants me back in about another month or so. I still need to meet with my doctor here and see what he would like to do which I am sure will be to continue with the light therapy I had started at the end of last year. I am thinking I will be putting both girls through that as well just to try and help make sure we have done everything we can. I also have this CCSVI issue to address. It is a very complicated thing. The biggest road block comes back to finances. I hate that this is even an issue but it is. I am trusting God though that he knows what needs to happen and it will be taken care of. For right now I will continue the fight one day at a time.
I always like to end on a good note so I have a couple of things to share. An amazing person (and her family) who has become such an important part of my life have had a breakthrough in her fight against Lyme. She is lacking a major gene that is responsible for her bodies ability to detox. She is the second young person with Lyme I know personally who is facing this issue. I am so excited to see how this affects their treatment and how they feel. They have had little improvement much to the doctors frustration and this may be the answer. So I am beyond excited to see them start to get well.
Last thing I want to share is some exciting news for the whole Lyme community. This Friday, the 13th, Dr. Phil is taking on Lyme Disease. Please watch it, DVR it, whatever you can do even if you don't like Dr. Phil. He has a LLMD and news reporter/Lyme fighter Brooke Landau in addition to some "bad guys" from the IDSA. The IDSA
Lots of prayers continue to be needed and appreciated not only for my family but for all of the families fighting this disease. Thanks for following along on this crazy journey. Sorry this update may be all over the place. My brain has just not been working lately.