People that know me the best know that I like to dance. Well actually I love to dance. It is almost torture to be some where, especially with a dance floor, when a good song comes on. I can't sit still. I have a constant need to move to the beat of the music, in church, in the car, at home...Anyways I think you get the point. So the other day I made up a new dance. I decided to call it the Trader Joe Twitch. It is so easy to do I figured I would share it with you just in case you wanted to try it. All you have to do is grab a shopping cart, walk into your local Trader Joe's, and then begin having a seizure as you push your cart around the store.
That's right, after almost 3 months of no seizures I had one the other day when I was grocery shopping. I felt like one was coming on for about 3 days. I tried so hard to make it go away but with no such luck. I needed to get my shopping done so I just carefully maneuvered my cart through the store trying to not accidentally hit someone or give them my almost famous seizure thumbs up. I tried to keep my vocalizations quiet enough as to not draw attention and I fumbled my way through a conversation with the checker, stuttering as I went. I had a few choice words running through my head as I let my frustration get the best of me. What the heck is going on? Why do I feel so bad again? I don't understand.
For close to a month now I feel like I have been starting to regress a little bit. I assumed that the transient pain that was starting to reappear had to do with stopping my remedies to early by mistake. However when I went back to Kansas last month, the remedies I thought would be responsible my body didn't want anymore. To make it even more frustrating, it looked as if my Lyme was under much better control but my viruses were really a problem. Any progress I had the second go around is gone and the last week, especially the last few days have been hell. I am beyond tired, my brain is pretty much worthless, the seizure, and the PAIN! Muscle pain, nerve pain, joint pain, bone pain. The joint and the bone pain are at getting fairly high up on my pain scale and it has been this intense for three days now. That has never happened. Time to e-mail the doc and see what his thoughts are. I have been trying to detox more than normal and don't feel like I am getting any relief.
I am so bummed out right now. I guess I just thought things were really moving in the right direction (which they may be) and that I was reaching a stopping point so I feel like I am so moving backwards. I have been reminded recently though that my treatment is almost for sure going to be long, really long, term. I have been sick for over 26 yrs and I can't expect to get better in a year or even 2 years. I feel like I am at some sort of cross roads though on what I do for treatment. Frankly weather I go back to antibiotics or stay on the natural road with Hansa or someone else we are out of money. So unless I win the lottery the best treatment for me at this point is probably not going to be an option I have. I just feel lost at this point. I don't feel like I am even able to make the best treatment choice anymore. I need a third person to come in and hear what all the doctors have to say, and do some research and help me sort all of this out. It is just to much.
To make things more complicated, we of course I dealing with the fact the our 8 yr old has Lyme. I found out this week she has been suffering from the ringing in the ears and her intermittent dizzy spells are happening almost daily. She also broke out in the worst case of hives she has had in years. I don't know if this is a healing crisis, if the remedies have stirred up the Lyme and the bacteria is changing form, or what is going on. Her pediatrician doesn't even know about the diagnosis yet and frankly can't treat her as she knows nothing about it. I so wanted to go the natural route with my kids but am not sure if that is going to work. Both of my natural options are probably out of the question financially. Switching the kids to my doc would work for a little bit but again the natural therapies would cost more than we can afford. If I stop all treatment I will go backwards and could end up not able to care for my family at all. Yet at the same time, I won't let my daughter suffer. This is really something only God can handle. I have to remember to just give it up to him.
I'll let you know what the doctors say and how things go over the next week. Prayers and positive energy are always appreciated. Oh and I finally have a website for my new business. Please check it out and let me know if you could use my services. www.surfchaserphoto.com
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Hansa Day 6- Tired and Wired
It's late and I need to get some sleep so I am going to try and make this short. Well short for me anyways. I have had a horrible time with insomnia. Compared to some of my friends my trouble sleeping is nothing but it has definitely been rough the past few nights. I am sure I didn't get to bed before midnight the last three nights, I guess it would 4 counting tonight. In fact I didn't go to sleep until about 2:30 this morning. It is driving me nuts. Once I am asleep though, I do seem to be sleeping better than normal. Needless to say I was tired today. At least my day ended early so I go almost a 2 hr. nap. This week is much busier than last and the owner/head doctor is in this week. I am hoping I get a chance to chat with him even if its for a minute.
I started this morning off by seeing the doctor. He did some minor work with the percussor on my upper back and neck area. Then we went into something called bio coherence. Basically it involved the BRS to see first if my cells were able to communicate and second if there were speaking the same language. That uncovered a lot of messed up stuff. I took a one time homeopathic remedy and he proceeded to make me another remedy to add to my list. This one however I will not refill. Once my bottle is gone, I will be done. Because of some energy level stuff Dr. J wanted me to increase the one pill I take from once a day to twice a day. No big deal. Once we finished with the bio coherence we went on to some emotional stuff. I honestly forgot what they call this but they are a couple of things they will be looking at today we used flower essence to check for emotional things. The four or five emotional issues that came forward were pretty interesting and I guess looking back tonight I see how they were right on. Those emotional issues were playing a part in my bodies ability to heal. Bringing those to the surface added some more things to my new remedy so it now contained 13 different things in one bottle. The cool thing was, after we got that cleared up, I no longer needed to take those additional pills. Dr. J said there was some clearing out in my adrenals and hopefully this will help the energy/vitality stuff. I feel like my body is cooperating pretty well with the plan and things are moving along fairly well. That makes me happy of course. As far as the emotional things go, I may or may not feel anything. So two things happened after seeing the doctor. I was super tired and yawning a lot but at the same time I felt wired for a little bit. Some of the treatments that usually put me to sleep or almost to sleep I could not rest. So kind of weird to be tired and wired and at the same time. But maybe that is a sign of things to come. Then during my massage, it was also hard to relax and I was thinking of some random and not so great stuff. I realized that this was probably a release from the emotional stuff. It was all starting to make sense. It was kind of enlightening. I do some things to deal with or let go off. Hopefully this new remedy will help.
To end with I want to go over my top 20 list of problems. This is what I mentioned I was going to ask the doctor to go over with me from my first day. It is actually two top 10 lists. I will just run down the lists and will probably have more information on it later on in the weak. Oh and before I forget my massage therapist said her type of massage is called "custom"...she uses all the techniques as I need. Her suggestion is to go the schools when I get back and want a massage. They will be trained in it all and I will be good practice for them and they are cheaper. Good idea. Ok back to the lists.
Top 10 organs in order of most important to least (again this is what the body revealed to the doctor on the first day in the BRS)
1. Adrenals 2. Spleen 3. Liver 4. Heart 5. Ovaries 6. Pituitary 7. Pineal 8. Hypo-thalmus 9. Thyroid 10. Bladder
Top 10 chemical/nutritional issues body revealed in order of most to least important
1. Virus (things like EBV, HHV6, and my pneumonia's) 2. Bacteria (Lyme, etc) 3. Deficiency (I am deficient in something...could be the Vit d) 4. Toxicity 5. Hormones (Interesting that ovaries and hormones are both number 5) 6. Enzymes 7. Metabolic (absorption) 8. Yeast 9. Fungus 10. Allergies
So that is it for tonight. Now to try and go to sleep in the next hour or so. At least I don't have to get up to early. I don't go in until 10 and don't even see the doctor until 4 so tomorrow will be a late day. Thanks for following along on my journey. Keep the prayers coming.
I started this morning off by seeing the doctor. He did some minor work with the percussor on my upper back and neck area. Then we went into something called bio coherence. Basically it involved the BRS to see first if my cells were able to communicate and second if there were speaking the same language. That uncovered a lot of messed up stuff. I took a one time homeopathic remedy and he proceeded to make me another remedy to add to my list. This one however I will not refill. Once my bottle is gone, I will be done. Because of some energy level stuff Dr. J wanted me to increase the one pill I take from once a day to twice a day. No big deal. Once we finished with the bio coherence we went on to some emotional stuff. I honestly forgot what they call this but they are a couple of things they will be looking at today we used flower essence to check for emotional things. The four or five emotional issues that came forward were pretty interesting and I guess looking back tonight I see how they were right on. Those emotional issues were playing a part in my bodies ability to heal. Bringing those to the surface added some more things to my new remedy so it now contained 13 different things in one bottle. The cool thing was, after we got that cleared up, I no longer needed to take those additional pills. Dr. J said there was some clearing out in my adrenals and hopefully this will help the energy/vitality stuff. I feel like my body is cooperating pretty well with the plan and things are moving along fairly well. That makes me happy of course. As far as the emotional things go, I may or may not feel anything. So two things happened after seeing the doctor. I was super tired and yawning a lot but at the same time I felt wired for a little bit. Some of the treatments that usually put me to sleep or almost to sleep I could not rest. So kind of weird to be tired and wired and at the same time. But maybe that is a sign of things to come. Then during my massage, it was also hard to relax and I was thinking of some random and not so great stuff. I realized that this was probably a release from the emotional stuff. It was all starting to make sense. It was kind of enlightening. I do some things to deal with or let go off. Hopefully this new remedy will help.
To end with I want to go over my top 20 list of problems. This is what I mentioned I was going to ask the doctor to go over with me from my first day. It is actually two top 10 lists. I will just run down the lists and will probably have more information on it later on in the weak. Oh and before I forget my massage therapist said her type of massage is called "custom"...she uses all the techniques as I need. Her suggestion is to go the schools when I get back and want a massage. They will be trained in it all and I will be good practice for them and they are cheaper. Good idea. Ok back to the lists.
Top 10 organs in order of most important to least (again this is what the body revealed to the doctor on the first day in the BRS)
1. Adrenals 2. Spleen 3. Liver 4. Heart 5. Ovaries 6. Pituitary 7. Pineal 8. Hypo-thalmus 9. Thyroid 10. Bladder
Top 10 chemical/nutritional issues body revealed in order of most to least important
1. Virus (things like EBV, HHV6, and my pneumonia's) 2. Bacteria (Lyme, etc) 3. Deficiency (I am deficient in something...could be the Vit d) 4. Toxicity 5. Hormones (Interesting that ovaries and hormones are both number 5) 6. Enzymes 7. Metabolic (absorption) 8. Yeast 9. Fungus 10. Allergies
So that is it for tonight. Now to try and go to sleep in the next hour or so. At least I don't have to get up to early. I don't go in until 10 and don't even see the doctor until 4 so tomorrow will be a late day. Thanks for following along on my journey. Keep the prayers coming.
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